Life Is A Speeding Train

  So I was thinking this morning about this last year and how fast it seems to have gone. I can't believe that so much has happened, but I feel like I didn't even get the chance to rope it in and feel it breeze past me. So here I am, needed some closure with the year and feeling a little nostalgic. It was an exciting new beginning, but it faded quickly. How do I sum it all up? I experienced life and new beginnings, but a lot of death, too, that seemed to just mix in and out. I've had a long losing streak with a few golden touches. Let me explain.
  A year ago I was starting my new job, learning again how to sleep at night, and had just moved into a cramped apartment.  I've been brought together with friends and family in strange ways this year; three occasions of marriage and life, and two by death. I had to say goodbye to people that I didn't think I'd have to for a long time; I also met some people that I will never forget and have a deeper connection to because what's happened. I've experienced being poor like I never have before with no food in the refrigerator and seeing our breath cloud up in front of our faces as we sat in our apartment. I found out how to be rich in other things in life, like enjoying small moments and not letting myself forget them. I met a man that quickly became my best friend and so much more than I would have ever expected. I've seen new sights and life's beauty at it's finest, I've floated around at the top and been sinking at the bottom. It's been a year filled with ups and down, growth, and finding strength that I didn't know I had.
  I've gained new perspectives on life and seen things through brand new eyes. I've learned a lot about myself realized that growing and progress never completely stop, they just sometimes change directions and take more time. A lot more time. If could have a conversation with myself with last year's Katie, I wouldn't even know what she'd to say to me. I think she would be disappointed in a lot of ways, mostly because I'm not anywhere near where I thought I'd be. I'm not even on the right continent. She'd be angry at me and tell me I wasted time, but eventually she'd forgive me. I'd share my same disappointments with her, but show her how much progress I've made personally. I'd like to think that if I explained myself and told her about the other things God wanted me to experience, that she would hopefully be more understanding. I wonder what she would change if she knew what was coming, if anything. She's always tended to take the more difficult path over an easy one, anyway.
  For now, I'm still paying off bills and debts, but I see progress and new beginnings. I have a lot more doors open to me and life is beautful! A few months back I applied for an internship in Bundestag, Germany and let it slip from my mind. I received and email last night about it being accepted, so I'm looking a little more into it and continuing onto the second application process. I'll give more details later on. I also started looking at visas and plane tickets again for going to Australia, because that's still a thing. They seem a lot more affordable than I thought before. I just need to stay focused and continuing planning for what's to come. Saving is just so hard when I only make enough to pay bills and fix my car. I should probably get a second job. Alright, I need to get ready for my highly skilled and complicated cashier job now. ;)


Until then, bless my restless bones and wandering feet